Hello everbody! You can call me Ithaqua. I am comming here from THE LAND IF ENCHANTMENT, NEW MEXICO... Truly it's enchanted, beautiful and mystifying, though I don't think the Apaches ensorcelled the land with benevolent intent. Thats a different conversation... anyhow, I'm 17 and I have been involved in the occult for ehhhhh almost 6 years. My grandmother introduced me to witchcraft with her various folk magic practices and a Scott Cunningham book that started me off with Wicca, then I got involved with Vodou, and I have gone deeper and deeper ever since.
I can't really define my practices because they change constantly, its similar to chaos magic, a bit satanic (non-theistic), kinda cabalistic and theosophical but naaaw, almost pantheism but no, and makes no sense because it doesn't need to. I don't believe in any anthropomorphic god/s, truly what is a god? To me its just a word. I think the closes thing to a god as humans tend to see a god, is the self and this world upon which we live.
Now then, I do experiment with archetypes and "gods". Though I don't believe in them in a way that would generally be religious, I do not deny them to be any more or less real, just a different theory. I have done a few Goetic operations, and have only associated with one spirit. I found the operation ineffective and inconvenient, so I contact the spirit in my head, astrally, or what ever its called. Most of my works I do in my head, or are "psycho-dramas" used to alter my mind.
As of now I am "worshiping" the death archetype... it's a seasonal experiment. Durring ritual I'm a strict devout, and out of the circle I'm just an every day mundane person. Recently I have developed a mock religion with friends and acquaintances called the "Cult of Walmart", you can get the idea... (IMG:style_emoticons/default/laugh.gif)
I find religion to be dangerous so I do not accept it, but I like a balance of contradiction and change, so I created the petty cult. I like to try out all sorts of practices, even if I think its completely stupid (really don't like superstition, but if used properly, it can be valuable). I do not believe in good and evil (varies though, in my various practice, but specifically I don't).
I have no true idea where power for magic comes from, aether, oblivion, the mind, I don't know, but just that it works (i prefer the mind, just sounds good). I mainly use it for the acquisition of intelligence and basically manipulating the mind. I like healing, but recently I have given up on it, people are just too negative and unwilling to give up their hypochondriac mindsets. Just not powerful enough to overcome the combined force, but I have been very successful in keeping my self from being sick. I used to get sick constantly but one day, almost two years ago I decided to deny sickness, and it worked. It could have been a coincidence, but I truly believe I transformed myself. Just recently there was a bronchitis and strep outbreak and I was the only one that didn't even get sick. I also have developed a tolerance to the cold, I will go to school in shorts when its under 32 degrees... don't really know, or to much care, just that my desire was satisfied...

anyways I'm tired of talking about my self... (IMG:style_emoticons/default/laugh.gif)