paper thin, how to use drawn enegry? Options

Iv been reading through some of the forums and i keep coming back to a simailar subject, The drawing of engery or psi what ever you prefer from things around you. In one done by '| Kinjo' he gos to talk about creating your own mystical space in the mind, then on to explaining differnt methods of using this space to help in working in the astral.

My ability is this I myself have been able to create perfect images in my mind since i was quite young between 6 to 8 the memory is unclear on detail, Im able to hold images steady for periods of time in short my imagination is as clear in my minds eye, As reality is to a common person.

I have tried the exercies placed by '| Kinjo' but in my attempts to re learn the things that come natural. I feel as if there is somthing blocking me, A paper thin barrier that stands between me, and what i could be doing. Forgive me for grammer and if my ramble is alittle unclear to you all, Need less to say it is less clear to myself making it diffcult to get a point across.

My question is this is it possiable in my attempts to open my own mind, in my attempt to dive in to an untapped ability. That I have some how created a barrier against my own mind, a form of self preservation. I have minor empathy it works more by instinct then control, I will be the first to admit my failing in reading up more on it but when things feel natural you just dont want to doubt your control in it. But as i was saying even then when i try to understand the emotions that are coming in to me, or even whom there coming from it feels like a barriar paper thin stands between me and my goal.

On a side question another form done also by '| Kinjo', 'Marconus' and a few others they speak about taking in out side engerys. '| Kinjo' says all
"all energy follows thought," and that a person can draw enegry to or more accurtely in to themself.

My question is what then can be done with that engery once drawn in. On the comment by 'Marconus' he said "I personally like using the tendril method," a method he gos on to say he uses to visualize tendrils drawing engery from differnt things. Apone hearing about this i tried it myself. Was able to see tendrils coming from the stomach and root Chakra, but once agian i felt that paper thin barriar and even a thought how could i tell if i was not just wishful thinking it there, or was i truly creating those tendrils from my mind.

That is all i can think to say forgive the bad grammer once again. Also if i was not clear on some of it please tell me, I would be more then happy to try and cleary explain. I just want to learn all i can even if i cant use it all least i could help some one who could use it.

side note i know im ignorent no need to tell me lol so who ever talks ill make myself listen now thank you.

I have moved the thread here as it seems more appropriate than 'one liners'.

I think you have answered you own question. The "paper thin barrier" is your own doubt. You need to do a paradigm shift, move to a new reality tunnel where energy is all around you and can be manipulated by your mind.

What the Thinkers thinks, the Prover proves.

Think you are surrounded by energy, and then look for Proof. Think of your mind as a computer, write some energy manipulating software and hit the 'EXECUTE' button!

We (to an extent) create our own reality. It can be a functional or dysfunctional reality, the choice is yours.