Not being funny here, but Ceremonial Magick is about energy and contact and you got a result almost straight away - I would be thrilled (and was) and want to learn more, my journal would be full of this exciting moment and I would be delving in, trying to understand it etc etc.; this just sounds like it scared you. Are you sure you want to follow the CM path?
Maybe you should think carefully about why you want to look into CM, is it just out of interest or research or as an experiment or you have some future ideal in mind?
I really do think you need to be clear about why and to what ends here and if you do think it is for you, then I would start with basic stuff. Don't take any notice if you get called fluffy whilst you are reading say Kraig's
Modern Magick, if you want to do it for real, then you have to start at a place where you can handle it.
Most importantly, you should
enjoy your path.
With kind thoughts
Radiant Star
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