@ jlx:
I think you have the right idea there. You are on a dangerous ledge as well.
“You create your reality” I think you are getting this one in a profound way.
“It is important to include others in your reality.” It is too easy to end up outside of the reality of others, and that is a poor existence.
“Secrecy is part of Magick” It is important to keep your core path a secret, mostly so that things that you can do, do not become impossible because others say so, but also so you can change reality from moment to moment.
However, share the technical ways you do things with like minded peers so you can learn and grow by learning from them.
I know what I said about sharing and secrecy seem like opposites, but it is not. It is important remember that society (what I like to call our tribe) has a gravity all it’s own. We are defined by our peers and those around us, they can accept gradual change, but sudden change is harder, and it will try to shove us back to it’s definition of us.
This is good and bad, those people bring us up to their expectations, but also put us down to their expectations. So it is great till 13~17 or so, lousy when we are trying become individuals trying to embody our own reality.
Balancing everything is always a trial, but with practice it becomes easy, as our reality, becomes the reality of us for our tribe.
My tribe expects me to do odd and crazy things, and sometimes be really odd, but always come back, a little changed. But also more like myself then before, like as if there was a missing piece of a puzzle that I filled in.
My tribe at this point expects me to create my reality.
Totally separately:
Personal
pet peeve; Please do not think of this as quantum physics. It is not the same…there are similarities but there are also similarities between a basketball and the planet mars.
Another tip, for better legibility on all forums: try to split up really sentences or paragraphs. It makes it easier to read what you are writing. It hides my bad grammar better as well. Capitalizing the first word in a sentence helps as well.
But on a computer, splitting up every few lines is a good thing.