I, at a time in my life, was troubled (mentally and socially). I would repeatedly see a great red eye open up on my wall, and this gravelly voice with far too many tones in it to be anything near human, would say various things. One that stood out was "Give back what you have stolen from me...". I was greatly troubled by this, and on top of it, was going through many things in my life. I'd say this is when the occult really stood out to me. I studied into things of this nature, and was led into a study on hauntings. I had always been on par with the astral, being introduced to it (violently, might I add - an astral entity disguising itself as a guardian angel attacked and tried to kill me) at probably the age of 11. From that moment on, a hole inside me was torn open, I could feel it on a level tangible yet not wholly physical.
Anyways, I grew to find this eye had a name, and it was a source of great disturbance to my best friend and the only other practitioner I knew. His name was Glames, and he was much like a dragon, but he only ever appeared to me when I was depressed, in a rage, or otherwise weakened by emotion. It all started like this, I'd drift off to sleep, my wall would fill with a viscous liquid dark as night, and this eye would open up, and then focus on me. Even if I was doing my best to stay mostly invisible. I ended up just confronting him, and he claimed that I had a piece of him inside myself, and that to be whole, he wanted it back. For lack of a better term, I challenged him to a gentleman's duel, a battle of wits, and he lost. He surrendered, and I.. Um... Ate him.
Later on in life, looking at it from another angle, the first time he appeared to me, I was on pain killers, had a concussion, and I hadn't slept in two days. He was a manifestation of my problems at the time, I think, or that I had somehow conjured this entity to personify my problems so that I could directly face them. The psyche has a great deal of power, but we must acknowledge that we are in control of our psyche. It just centers on being able to control the same things our psyche can. Which is, in itself, a great deal harder than it sounds.
But I digress. I wish you the best of luck, and consider that it could be a psychological manifestation of your troubles. Try confronting it, seeing what it wants. Ask it to remove itself, politely. Sometimes it's as easy as that. Consider the feelings you get when the eye first manifests. Do these feelings cause you a great deal of trouble or appear often to you? Are the situations surrounding the eye's appearance frequent or do they cause you to be upset? All things to think about.
Peace to you.
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"It is not a garment I cast off this day, but a skin that I tear with my own hands." Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet
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