"jafar, I'm Stuck...!", Supershield out of control Options

About two and a half years ago, I followed down a path of esoteric severity. I was making progress rather quickly, perhaps too quickly, when my spiritual body started it's linkup to the astral. Because I did not know anything about the nature of the astral, nor the nature of beings at the time, I had NO clue what was in store for me, nor could I explain the palpable sensation that my soul would be snatched out of my body, and I would be left to die (It actually happened once before, I cried for help, and I managed loose back into my body). Looking back, I now know that it was simply entities attracted to me with a sense of, "Hey! Human managed to get power! Let's help 'em out and show them around the place!" but I instead allowed my fear and ignorance to get to me.

Ever since then, I made a decree out of fear to forever shield myself from what I called "Snatch," so aptly named for the sensation of hands coming every now and then, tugging. This Snatch Shield, as I call it, turned out to be one of the most POWERFUL integrity-check type shields out there. Later down the line, as it turns out, not even a group of 2-3 mages could break my hold, no matter how much I tried to relax.

Now, two and a half years later, it has malformed into something hideous. Instead of being set up as a shield, it has made me a prisoner. It feels almost like a Iron Maiden, trapping me, and leaving me to my own devices, as my own body is severely limited in the flow of higher energies, and my mental capabilities are slowly dwindling or warping to a pace slower than that of the trek of the stars across the sky. Whenever I HAVE managed out, my astral body is mangled, malformed, or atrophied. What's worse, it has gained so much energy, it has become a semi-sentient puppet of a twin. Alas, for I have created my own astral beast.

Now, what I ask for, is proper advice on how to get rid of my shield, or learn how to deactivate it at will.

But this is no simple task. At the time, I was under a sedation from my doctor experimenting with the effects of prescribing different pharmaceuticals to me at the time. One of which, as I recall, placed me into a latent alpha stage of mind. It was in this, that I chose to create the "Snatch Shield."

Rarely now, do I find myself in a proper relaxed state of mind. I have an EXTREMELY hard time regulating my own energies from within, only from my own, and processing on my own effort (I DO get energies from the outside, but very very limited!). What I ask for from this paragraph is feedback to the stipulation that to use that specific drug again, and then meditating myself to do away with this unneccessary sheild may be a feasible idea or not.

Overall though, I need out. Help me. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/compress.gif)

Source of info was a self-reflective breakdown rant in front of a friend, where I remembered and realized what happened to me which caused me so much trouble.

Hmm I don't know where you are located but it sounds as if you need help in person rather than online help. Are there any powerful energy work healers near you?

Yes a reiki healer my friend. Just pay the dollars and make sure you explain to them exactly what you have to us. we could help you in limited amounts by being there astrally when you go to leave. But chances are this curse you put on yourself "while in a meditative state non the less" might be sort of hairy to experiance first hand.
You may be able to weaken it enough by differant means that it will just fade away after a while. Meditation on the fool,death, and wheel of time card may help. And dismissing it may help. Even choosing to dibelieve that its still around can help.

But really find the reiki healer. it has blocked you up man.

GENERAL:
Find a reiki healer

Funny. Just after posting, I was wondering both that 1) are there any people in the Lake Erie area and 2) I was looking up reiki.

Seems like the general concensus of my condition remains true in my heart, and in metaphysical reality as well on both microcosmic and macrocosmic scale.

Thank you.

If there are any offers from this communtiy, please PM me. Otherwise, I will start looking. Thank you again.

This post has been edited by WyrdScience: Jan 16 2007, 02:20 PM

Sorry im on lake Michigan its probably to far away. I practice Chios energy healing and im fairly new to it. You need a pro.

I guess I'm always the one to play devil's advocate on these matters, so I might as well throw in my two cents.

You don't need reiki, nor do you need anyone to 'fix' you. What you need to do is identify how that shield manifests in your behavior - there is no such thing as a magickal structure which doesn't affect behavior - and change that behavior, if you cannot bring yourself to simply banish the shield straight up.

Elsewise, every magickal structure has an anchor point. Structures include wards, enchantments, basically any standing magickal effect. The anchor can be an object, a symbol, a behavioral pattern taken up for the purpose of sustaining the effect, or even a simply agreement you've made with yourself.

Magick goes haywire because of psychological imbalance. Question why you created the shield in the first place, why that was your reason, where the root of the reason is in your psyche, and decide whether you have become obsessive over that element of psyche or not.

Depending on how aligned your psyche is to your will, banishing the shield could be as simple as idetifying the root of the structure and litterally unravelling it from the root up. 'unplugging it' as it were. If it is a self perpetuating circuit, then find a point at which you can interrupt the structure.

Magick doesn't go out of control, the psyche does. A shield that you built doesn't become 'too strong to take down on your own' - you become attached to the effect and refuse to relinquish it.

Magick requires a sober mind, and a stable sense of reason and understanding of the relationships between the inner and outer worlds. Once the true nature of these kinds of structures can be grasped, any banishing is as simple as simply, "I'm done with this effect now. It's gone."

In my experience, nine times out of ten people just need to be convinced not to take their magick with such a dramatic sense of dire consequence. Magick is subtle, always subtle, never dramatic. People are dramatic.

peace

He already admited to being pretty out of it when he did this. No he does not need reiki. But it will more than likely cleanse him enough to either see the problem or it may even take care of the problem all together.

He has done this to himself and made it as powerful as it already is. Anymore fiddling on his part is pointless unless he can come to complete and definate ends to this. And that i doubt. Just make it easy pay the cash it is a block in one or more chakra and it will be gone with a reiki practitioner.

If he did this to himself in a meditative state there is no definate that he will ever even find the proper reverse to this. Heck he was drugged up. It may have even been done while astral that would be a mess. You and i both know its a simple matter of not believing in it to remove it. But he has named it and even made the decree while afraid.

Just the proper payment and the action of haveing healing done will be a huge deal. And besides read the entire post theres more going on than just this "shield".

He has never been out of body for real yet that means his energy body is not yet completed. You think he is going to recapitulate the situation with no help?

You know out of anybody here Vagrant that i am a true believer in do it yourself and if you cant than you need more experiance. But not in this case.

This post has been edited by Enochian: Jan 16 2007, 04:36 PM