Practicus
Posts: 1,184
Age: N/A Gender: Male
From: Atlanta, Georgia Reputation: 51 pts
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Like many others who have responded, I do suggest doing for yourself.
What methods aside from evocation have you attempted? I find that exploring the possible causes of illness often allows me to recover much faster from the diseases that have afflicted me in the past.
We are quick to say, with a tender heart, that disease and affliction are not the fault of the individual, and that it is callous to say such a thing.
However, even genetic maladies are usually triggered by some habitual action which inhibits the body's ability to suppress them. Cancer is helped along by smoking, drug use, too much time in the sun, which only harms us because of the damage humanity has done to the ozone layer. Eating foods that are not good for you, have additives and chemicals in them, can also contribute. I find that I often get the flu or a cold when I am being lazy and do not want to work. I sometimes get a break out on my skin, oil pockets, zits, etc., when I am berating myself for my appearance or hide away and refuse to be seen.
I am not completely sure what your ailment is, and you have only hinted at it on this thread. But, you are the master of your temple. It is your will and intention that alters the course of it's developement for better or worse. If you become depressed, admit helplessness, and wallow in self pity that you can do nothing to save yourself, then you are abdicating your ability to change for the better. In just doing that, you are giving up on your body, and on your own divinity, and thus your body will give up on itself, and it will not heal itself as it otherwise could.
It is not my intention to be harsh and hurtful, and I hope that you will not take this personally, it is not directed just at you, but is a general law of intention that applies to everyone. I used to have several chronic problems - a stomach ulcer, poor eyesight, bad skin, chronic muscle pain, and a curvature in my spine. I relied on the pity of others to feel better about myself, I complained to the chiropractor that his medicine was not effective, all the while lamenting that my body was out of control.
Over the course of a few years of meditation, which took virtually no external effort to tax my body, and a complete paradigm overhaul, I began to learn just how significant the effect of my mood was on my body. I slept too long, because getting out of bed was a chore and would mean having to go out and live life. I was depressed because I was lonely and did not have a lover, and felt inadequate and unloved. My body began to believe what I was constantly telling myself, and was reacting in kind, with pain, because I was hurting myself by believing in my own helplessness. Then, gradually, I changed my tune.
You have to have faith in yourself. If anyone else was going to help you, you'd have to have as much faith in them, so why not turn that same power towards your own wellbeing, rather than lending it to someone else so they can do all the work? It will be temporary at best. I have done magick for others of one kind or another a few times. it is always temporary, never permanent. They never want to do the work part of it that they may have been more inclined to do on their own. Everyone has the ability to tap into healing energies. Everyone has the ability to command their body, with loving attention and a disciplined heart, to become strong, and to pick itself up out of the trenches of depression and sickness.
You must work on acquiring your willpower again. You may think you have it, but if you are in this position now, then there is something amiss with that belief. I am sure that everyone who reads this thread will sympathize, and dedicate a moment of energy to you. We are all, mostly, well meaning people who wish the best for the world and all the people in it.
I request that everyone who reads this post do exactly that. Take only a few moments to send your intentions out towards Daniel22, positive intention that he find the way to heal himself, that the universe support his illumination. It will cost nothing but a few moments between this paragraph and the next.
Daniel, your job is to make the agreement with yourself, right now, that you will use that positive energy to uplift yourself and understand the nature of your problems, and how to heal them. The universe wants you to have that power. If you will make that agreement, and begin to change your attitude about this matter, you will see positive changes, your body will work with you instead of allowing itself to remain out of balance.
Get yourself a large white candle. Hold it to your heart, and with conviction say a prayer with this general theme: "I am the master of my temple. My body obeys my command. I have in my heart only unconditional love for my body, my mind, and my spirit." say this prayer, or one like it of your own creation, again and again until you say it with conviction. Accept the reality of your own divinity. You may even speak to your body directly. This candle is a symbol of your agreement. Light it, and let it burn down all the way. Then light another one. Continue this process until you have regained your confidence and your will. Each time you see the candle, let it remind you of your agreement, and check yourself to make sure you are honoring it. Any habits you have that are bad for your body, give them up. Be conscious of what you eat, what you take into your body. Any habits that are bad for your mind, give them up. Do not doubt yourself, or berate yourself. If you find yourself thinking "I cannot this or that" or "Poor me" or anything along those lines, immediately intercept that thought and disagree. "That isn't true. I may choose not to, but I am capable." "Poor me nothing, I do not need sympathy, my own or others'." The same goes for your spirit. Do not retain beliefs which hinder your growth. Agree to follow your heart and your purpose.
Do these things, and you will not need anyone to evoke anything on your behalf. This will work, if you are willing to make these agreements for and with your Self. I have walked this path, and am still walking it one step at a time. I no longer work with spirits, and my life has improved dramatically, in ways I had not imagined when I started it. It will take time, and discipline. You may think that it would be easier to simply rely on a spirit or angel or someone, to help you, to give you answers and tell you what you need to do. Maybe my happenstance to come across this post and be inspired to write all of this IS your answer, maybe I was drawn here at this time and place, with these words, at the silent behest of some spirit, or the universe itself seeking to help you out.
Be blessed, and keep in mind at all times that the universe loves you as you love your skin, and bones, and muscles, and everything that comes together to make you what you are - a living breathing intelligent being given unimaginable grace by a force so vastly beyond your comprehension or mine, and so all powerful and eternal that there is no reason within our limits of understanding why we came to be beyond the basic principle that we somehow are necessary, and therefore are loved beyond imagining.
peace
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