Change Of Spirit Name, Read for details, a bit complicated Options

A long time ago, I took a spiritual/magickal name based off of what seemed to be one of my names in a dream. A long time ago, I used to be a white knight named "Ulric."

So, logically, I chose to go with that name....not smart.

(At this point on, "Ulric," will be described as "he" in second person to denote my distance and estrangement from association with that name and energy.)

"Ulric," as it seemed, when used today and in this life, became a superperverted version of a cleric who tried to be a cheap knockoff of Enki's field of expertise. Ulric was perverted, immature, selfish, and unstable, but there was NO match on earth when creating certain esoteric correlations, formulae, and innovative magickal methods. He had one main flaw, the same I carry over: Cannot astral project. He titled himself "Xenomancer," after the Greek etymology of "Worker of the strange/Divinator by unknown (means/methods/knowledge/wisdom/ethic)."

After a while, he -stepped on too many toes-, and from what I know, Ulric has either been done away with, or sealed for going insane from magickal addictions. Since then, I have taken his title for myself, as Xenomancer, to still undergo and investigate the unknown realms of magick and mysticism, but not at such a dangerous and feverish pace as this once-active wayward counterpart.

Ever since I have underwent living as "Ulric," and then being sealed away as him, I feel as if my mind had a governor device on it when trying to think (allegorical metaphor to comparing my mind to an engine). I cannot hypnotize myself, because if I try, I forget the point I was trying to instill. I forget theses when orating at anytime, unless it has been written. My sense of passion from deep within has been shot, and now all things I pursue, I either do not pursue at all, or pursue at a rate of slow cautiousness with the undertone of paranoid suspicion to all things around me (hey, what can I say, I'm a Loyalist personality with a bad experience with failing myself with my goals, especially when letting myself down and getting sidetracked!)

In hopes to do away with all of this, I was wondering if there was a way to get rid of ALL spiritual associations with Ulric, his name, and whatnot, and try to go to where I wanted to be all along? (ref. Thread: "Help Identify Description!") And if I did, is it feasible to find another name? How WOULD I go about rescinding my old name, and if possible, appeal clemency to the spirit within and spirit about? Secondary: If I were to expell this Ulric from my essence, would my "psychic limiter" be removed?

I would be EXTREMELY greatful for help, and in return, I would be glad to help out when sought out.

Hey WyrdScience

My frames of reference will be different, so take everything I write here with a bucket of salt. I'm Chaos-oriented, so my first inclination would be to do three things -- at least this is what I'd do.

I believe in TRUE NAME. Spiritual and Magickal names (my point of view) are really just names to identify yourself at a high level and "position" your work (again, my opinion). It can affect your work, certainly. Divorcing yourself of a working name is fairly straightforward. Banish the name in your own mind, or more formally if you want to charge the intention.

But what I would do, if you don't already know it, is divine your true name. Since I'm Tantric/eastern oriented, I believe in rebirth, and believe we all have true names that will be forever us. They aren't just a name. THEY ARE US. I did a post on how to divine this elsewhere that worked for me. (link post is http://www.sacred-magick.org/index.php?showtopic=4304 ) The thing about the true name, though, is it should never be disclosed to anyone (even closest friends). The ancient belief -- empowered by millennia of belief -- is that to know the true name of anything is to be able to control it (even a god).

But once you know it, just simply calling on your true identity should effectively banish all associations to your previous magick work name. Then, simply rename yourself (the outer persona, conscious magickal name versus the subconscious true name, I mean).

The next thing I'd probably do, but only because of my leanings towards Chaos, is to create a protection sigil specific to banishing Ulric. Implant it in the subconscious and forget it, and you're done. (see the Chaos section if this interests you). Or turn it into a talisman if you want.

Then, I'd likely create and name a servitor, specifically empowered to work with your new persona (I'm trying to think of a better word, but this seems right). If you want, you could also encode your servitor with a "watchful" purpose -- to watch and protect from any "straying" back into the old persona. Servitors work for me best of all.

Of course, I'd also advocate strongly a few well-focused divinations (preferably open-ended divining such as tarot) to establish if your sigil/servitors will be effective, if you've effectively abolished the old persona/identity/name and finally if you've truly discovered your True Name. But that's all just my way of working, without knowing your particular preferences/style. For me, as a Chaote, they all are equal, as long as they can be proven to work. This is why I use Thoth Tarot methods so much. Nothing reassures me that my "invented" methods have worked faster than a few consecutive and meaningful Tarot reads. Why settle for hoping when the Tarot (via the subconscious) can tell you all you need to know. Proof of effectiveness is all I care about as a Chaote.

Thanks.

But, there's still this nagging feeling that the picture is still incomplete with that answer, even if it did put a piece in place...