This is copied straight from a journal entry for this morning. I am currently in progress of tracking my dreams.

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July 3rd 2007

My dreams came as a stream of vibes and visions. One was of me playing Final Fantasy 7. In the game, Cloud was running along the Junon mountain range near adamantite cave, facing east. This was significant to me because it held the vibe of innocence, back when I knew how to play and enjoy. The next was one of the upstairs loft at my father´s house. I was about to go down the stairs. The lights were dimly on from below, and it was a winter´s night. The house was warm. I was cozy. There was a vibe of security and home I have not felt in years.

I do not remember much else, other than getting out of bed in water shoes, on the astral. The room was very dark- Pitch black. I willed to go to the astral, but to no avail. There was a small fluxuation of energy, but that was all. I tried to reach to the power/source/being which provided these vibes and prayed for guidence to have them back in my life, to remember their devine essence within myself once more.

In response, I believe I was told of two paths: One short, one long. I knew not which one to choose, as I was still wary of the things I learned in my tribulations and other lessons in my life. I was afraid that the short path would come to a price I would regret paying, and that the long path would require strength I did not posess.

I was tired, and I am scared.

I feared the short path meant I could not find a decent living, even though I found love. On the other, I was afraid my hard efforts of journeying and learning would be for naught in the name of love, though I would posess the means for monetary support.

I expressed my heart to this spirit, that I did not want to choose yet, and that I needed more clarity and time, as making a choice based on hasty judgment would be unwise. Again, I am fully aware my fears could be falsely based, but at the same time, could I risk rushing headlong to a situation I could not come out of? I tried to open my heart further, as I knew if I truly emptied myself for the moment, the right path will come to me of it´s own accord. Before I could, I entered into a more wakeful state, and my thinking sped up to a state of a more conscious awareness of ego.

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Just felt like I had to share.