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I am so glad that my Will has led me to an occult forums where i can discuss freely with knowledgeable and likeminded individuals. Here is just a little bit about myself, my background, and my magickal/occult interests.

- My name is Samuel, but you can call me Sammael, Noxifer, or whatever. I have existed physically for only seventeen years, but i consider my occultic life to be much younger, because it was only a year ago that i begun to practice magick.

- I am a Luciferian and i believe and i follow the left hand path of apotheosis (becoming a Creator).

- I am also a Thelemite, as i adhere to the Law of Thelema, and the universal Thelemic definition of magick.

- I do not believe in a right hand definition of god(dess). I believe in a pre-source (Chaos) from whence came the cosmos. That force is overarching and differs from person to person, however it is not my goal to merge with the source, but to become my own source. I view deities as archetypes of the magician and his/her Genius. For me the Trinity of Had (God=Luxifer/Noxifer), Nuit (Goddess=Luxifera/Noxifera), and RaHoorKhuit (The Two in One) represents the archetypical aspiration to become a God(dess), a Divine Androgyne.

- I follow the nightside Kabbalah, and am practicing to join the order Dragon Rouge when i turn eighteen. I am also looking into OTO, and Ordo Antichrstianus Illuminati.

- I have discovered several months ago, that i am a Psychic Vampire. I have the ability to take energy (chakra/prana) from another individual's astral body. I understand that there are certain psychic vampires who abuse their victims, and bear the title "psychic terrorists", but that's not at all what i am. I only "drink" energy from those i am familiar with, and only at there consent. Think of it like the equivalent to a sanguine vampire doner. The amount of energy i take is so minute that they hardly ever notice a thing, on occasion they might feel a slight bit drowsy. I have incorporated my vampirism into meditation and rituals, and have expiremented with methods to further the benfits i recieved from this "gift".

- I was raised an Orthodox Christian nearly all my life, but i never accepted their beliefs. My mother doesnt know of my occult interests (if she did i would be kicked out of my home), and thus practicing magick is very difficult. Howver, i am still able to practice sigil working (Spare method) and some lesser Ceremonial magick, but any advice anyone could give me would be greatly appreciated.

I know i am young and a bit "new" to the occultic practices, but i am certain that it is my Will to remain a practicioner of the LHP.

Thanks in advance for any welcomes.
Blessings,
Noxifer_616