After much meditation and shamanistic counseling, I found one of my problems to be a MASSIVE blockage in my 3rd eye.
This morning, I entered a relaxed state as I layed down beside my girlfriend. I drifted off to a semi-sleep state, and then one of my servitors triggered my awareness alerts (I had it grafted onto me). It shot a small alarm of vibe that essentially said, "You are in a generalized astral state of being." Then I marginally focused to be in a relaxed, but wakeful state of mind with my body our of my awareness. It felt as if my entire being focused into form from mist. I said in my mind, "I will now astral project." A fluctuation of energy surrounded me and flowed through me. Aware of my blockage, and how it may hinder my projection skills, I willed my mind to send a message to the astral. "Show me the door," I called, and with my mind, imagining my hand knocking on a door. This door, mind you, was an astral rendition of my 3rd eye Chakra. Although I could not control myself fully, I was able to see something with which I likened to be like a scouting monitor of some sort exploring the astral for me, because I could not do so fully at this time. It was my psionic servitor eye.
As it went by, through a dark void, I saw something that looked like an indic drawing design based off an "X" inside of an elaborately drawn composite boxform. On each end of the "X" was something that resembled a spade shape, and in the center was a Yin-Yang. My focus then zoomed in to a place on the bottom of the x, between the legs of it, latitudinally at the bottommost elevation, and slightly right of center longitudinally from the middle. I zoomed in more, and I saw a phantom door (it looked like a bunch of white ether lines being drawn in space to make an astral door). The door opened, and something came out to look around. It looked like a phantom rendition of the disembodied head of the pokemon Magmar. It quickly fled back inside the door and I followed to see what the matter was. When I entered, I saw something I never would have imagined...
The entire land was made of shadow energy, and the landscape looked drawn like a blackboard with chalk-art, but in this case made from ether-chalk. The sky was a strange glowing blood-red, the kind you see only in cartoons. A good example is the color of the sky when Uchiha Itachi uses his special Sharingan attack on somebody, entrapping them within their own mind (from the anime Naruto).
I entered and saw a hill with a tree on top, all black like a blackboard/shadow with the differentiations in dimension looking like cell shading effects with white ether borders and outlines. I woke up as I lost concentration.
Now, as I think back to it, I was trying to enter my own mind, I believe. But does anyone know what a landscape like that would entail?? What could such a visualization possibly symbolize?! Help please?
This post has been edited by Xenomancer: Oct 3 2007, 10:36 AM
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