I am seeking advice, nothing major.
I had the wonderful experience of walking into someone’s magickal circle with most of my unconscious shields down, or more effectively speaking, I was as open as I get without really thinking of it.
Now, to explain how this happened. I went to a park I sometimes go to meditate at night or do anything magickal that requires outdoors and not too many distractions.
This time, I was thinking of meditating and some astral travel on a particular demon that has acquired my interest. My motivations on this are not yet clear, but it has evaded me so far when doing it at home. So being it’s time of power, I thought to go out tonight and get this done with. I took my yoga mat and blanket, some incense, some salt. All fits in my Mat bag.
I wandered to the area where I have come to love, and I found that they installed sprinklers there, and they where on.
Wandered to another location below a Honey Mesquite like tree, it is this great tree in that it has a canopy that comes down on the edges but inside you can stand with no problem.
Anyway, as I was heading to it, I started doing some labyrinth work, opening myself up as I went. Just before I reached the tree, I felt a lot more power there then I have in the past.
I did not think too much about it thinking I was just more sensitive then normal, and I went under the canopy…that is when I felt like I crossed a barrier, this was not the energy of the tree, this was something different.
I sat down, did not open my bag, felt it out, and I felt the tree, but there was something else that just tasted of sexual tension to me. I thought about undoing it, but decided against it. I did break out the cell phone and used it as a flashlight to look around.
I found what I thought to be the remnants of a small ritual or some such, slightly buried. (small candles, some notes) and a little stone circle with what looked like kindling but no former fire.
I did not read anything, but I left it all as I found it, and wondered off to location C after opening up the circle and closing it back.
Location C I don’t like as there are more possible passer bys and it is very unnatural in feel. But it provides a body of water near by and decent vegetation and wildlife.
By the time I got there I had the beginning of a migraine. I did a bit of meditation, but I was foiled again…I get terrible migraines and I need to fix them before they progress. That meant going back to the car.
As I walked back, I was passing the tree (location B) and I noticed 2 people under it. (I have a lot of experience wondering in the dark secluded places, I can identify most things before they get into striking distance, but I have been known to be wrong).
I stopped there for a bit, focused on the darkness, and let my eyes and ears adjust. Two late teens/early twenties talking about where they need to get to as far as focus, mixed sex. I thought about going up to them and telling them to be more careful with their stuff, and not leave circles up. Then I thought about the freak-out factor I would cause, and it would probably mess up their night, as they seemed inexperienced. So I adjusted something in my pocket so it would make noise as I walked (I am usually very quite when I walk so I can hear things, I have to make an effort to make noise, usually) and started walking to my car avoiding the muddy ground. This took me to about 50-100 feet of the tree, and as I started going over the hill, already past the tree, I heard both gasp and stop talking.
They had been talking a bit, mostly about trying to inspire the right emotion or some such. But my keys where jingling with every step and I was not following it. After the gasp they made loud whispers about where I had come from, and who I was, that I hear clear cause it was loud whispers.
Anyway I got to my car, took my headache pills and sat for a bit thinking of what to do. I heard them breaking some wood (now half a block or more away) and two female joggers passed near the sidewalk where I was, clearly not thinking the best of me just loitering on my own under a streetlamp in an empty parking lot, with a long cylindrical bag over my shoulder.
So I waited a bit, made a few texts to friends who did not respond except one who was at work…meaning I could not call. And drove home.
Anyway. I have two or three questions as I wanted to do a few things but I then had other thoughts.
1. Should I have disrupted/dispersed the circle when I finally noticed it for what it was? 2. Should I have informed the youths that they should not leave circles up, and if they did not know that they created one, given them some information? 3. Should I have just avoided the spot all together, when I noticed the power difference?
And in general, what should you do about the places you like to go to, and find other people going to for the same reason as you, I could not blame them, it’s a great spot. I was shown the place a few months ago, and it is a quarter of the distance I used to drive for the same thing…but the further location is a lot better.
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--Paxx
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