Wow. These lil fellas aren't exactly a friendly bunch are they?
Is odd how I seem to pick up on things when I'm half asleep, am picking up on the level I need to be in to perceive things. This was a dishonorable affront on their behalf though, a late night sneak attack I couldn't fend off effectively, the word, ''con-troll' came to mind mid attack as I felt disassociated from myself along with a series of ''dreams'' or feelings of things described in work for the grade, kind of dreamt I had done the exercises given and was experiencing the effects described, ego struggling to resist the work, a separation of it (ego) from my self along with doubts as to whether I could handle my time in the grade, a heavy foreboding feeling.
Tried to fight them astrally but couldn't as it was an, 'in and out' kind of state, knew where one of them was, at least I think I did... they were beside the bed watching me, I think, sound of something heavy moving, could have been my brother in the next room. Not sure but think one of them was talking to me but I couldn't enter into dialogue with them.
Kind of put up with it, could have got myself up and ousted some earth energy but didn't. Used to suffer from depression, channeling the energy tends to work, using its using of you to some purpose or another. Tried to fight my feeling slow and lazy the other day, taking the energies on rather than going with it, played some aggressive music and did some exersize, pilates, weights and so on .lol. Bad idea, hit a high and got a low for the next few days accompanied by the same energies, had to kick some of the element then, Kraigs method works well though glad he details it.
Can't see the other elements being as tough to work with as earths.
Peace M
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