My Introduction Options

I have edited my introduction to give a better idea of who I am and what I am trying to accomplish.

I am a college student and an aspiring magician I guess you could stay. In college I am a student of psychology, but I am hoping to pursue a career in neuropsychology in the future. My other main area of interest has been Hermetics and Franz Bardon. I feel like I have recently woken up, and now I have a total thirst for knowledge of all kinds.

I guess you could say my "quest" began this summer with my dad buying me two books on meditation to help me try and overcome my ADD/ADHD. The books were "Balancing the Mind", and another which I have forgotten. The book is what first made me aware of study of treatment of psychological problems through meditation at the University of Wisconsin, and is something I also would like to pursue.

As far as my "magical path" goes, I have found the meditation exercises in the book extremely difficult which has been slightly discouraging. I can't seem to hold absence of thought for very long at all. I either consciously think about what I am trying to achieve, or have a slight moment where I slip up and forget what I am doing.

Before the start of all of this I was not religious at all, and I have been out of touch with God for a very long time. My purpose for joining this forum is that I am hoping it will offer some sort of mentorship and encouragement as I begin this journey of 1,000 miles.

Any advice or inspiration would be greatly appreciated.

This post has been edited by kumuaala: Jan 23 2008, 07:46 AM

Yo man, hows it :-)

nice field of study....

Concerning the meditation exercises, sure they are tough... my first advice for anyone entering the magical world is to practice psi balls and knowing the relationship between energy and conciousness.. from ther you will go a long way :-)

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Here is an interesting exersize that I use that may help you out.

Get a ball that is smooth and fits well in your hand. Large superballs a good. Roll it around in your hand for a bit. Get a good feel for it. When you are ready, begin to apply energy to it. The goal is to kind of coat the ball in energy. Do this for a while to get a good feel for it. When you feel ready for it, take away the superball or whatever and begin to roll only the ball of mana in your hand. The ball should have almost no weight to it in the begining, but as you fill the ball with energy it should get heavier. This may help you get a good mastery of controling your energy.

I personally do this all the time. For me it is mainly an idle process now. I do not see the ball of energy but I can feel its weight on my fingers. I do not watch my hand when I do it. Normally I watch TV. TV may be a little to distracting in the begining but hopefully this exersize will help you.