when you go to bed for sleep, i assume you are alone - if not then you will have to take walks or whatever
if the physical ones around you are total dunces, you could tell them you have started some martial art that requires you to meditate, or taken up yoga that requires you to sit quietly
if you are really, really sure you want to have him in your life again (regardless if he is nice or not) read this
http://www.sacred-magick.org/index.php?act...ype=post&id=867 (it is a weaving that works on your brain and senses like fern seed but without the distress, just be sure you want to change before you do it, as it makes you less human)