Dream Thieves, implant thoughtform found Options

i just spent a week in the desert, not saying why, but my days were free and i did a lot of introspection, and i found something

there was a thought construct, an implant for want of a better word, that had been throwing up stuff from my memory into my face, along with an awful feeling of not having done that particular moment in my life skillfully or whatever

i thought it was just a 'dark night of the soul' process, or some shamanistic 'dealing with the past' where those unskillful moments must be faced, recognized and forgiven - but it turned out to be something else, and what's more i traced it to its source!

it turned out to be an implant, a thought-form, a worm-like thing that was trundling through my memory, plucking forth those rotten grapes , and throwing them up into my consciousness, and yep, you got it, feeding off that negative energy reaction!

i had a friend follow the trail to the maker/user, and it was a shock but not that big of one - it fit with the vibration

i eventually killed it - hung it by its tail on a nail and watched it die, vamping back some of the ick that it had stolen from me - though, you know me, this was only after i tried using it, but it just sucked and was never designed for any giving back

it used disguise and illusion to hide, appearing as many things from a railway spike, to even a gray alien, each more complex than the first, but its real appearance was strange and simple, like the top of a bowling pin

who knows how long i had been feeding that thing, or exactly where i had picked it up, but this is for the someone that that energy trail led to

to you, those dream thieves, who have designed this thing and sent it out to put it in us, to cream off our unskillful memories, who feed off enlightenment, i sent you something too - mama always told me to share, and in this case, i've given you more than you've ever taken from me lol

enjoy your new companion, you little idiot that infected me! - did you think a vamp wouldn't notice?

if you didn't send it on purpose then god help your soul

I actually killed something recently akin to to that. I don't have the intense visualization processes that you have, but it felt like a filter. I ended up jamming its frequencies till it exploded, but it was kind of irritating.

How often do you encounter these things?

this one was indeed special, as will be their torment - oh boy am i pissed

Tell me more about the one who implanted it. What sort of disposition or situation did this person have to you?

I find myself facing something with similar symptoms. I may do some of the same work, myself. Care to give me some information so I can fill in the blanks on my own situation?

Just curious~

Was the construct just an demi sentient extension of the operator? Because if they were able to actively rifle your thought processes to the point you are conscious of their actions, I'm a bit impressed. Otherwise, could you tell if it had intelligence or will, or was it pretty much raw programming?

Fear is the Ego.

IT gets fed daily by the TV, newspapers, movies, magazines, gossip and many other forms of media.

People are media, each person gives off a certain vibration, others pick up on and match.

If you control your ego, then there will be no fear.

Thats the theory anyway.

it has nothing to do with fear - this was a thoughtform, probably backed by a sigil, designed with one purpose in mind: to force the host to recall past unskillful moments, then feed off the negative reaction of the host to that sudden memory popping up - a very nasty construct, and more straight black than just dark - it was too intelligent, too clever, and it was the product of a true master

i was not aware of it - it uses disguise and illusion and was very clever at appearing like a normal shamanistic feature of connecting to the subconscious. but that never quit

if not for that trip to the desert, the scrabble up into the canyons of spirit mountain, and the real shamanistic influence of that very sacred, almost alien, place, i'd still be clueless - it hides very well

how to tell if you have one? - easiest is by the action - if you are constantly having old issues, including ones you have already dealt with, pop up in your mind with a wave of almost revulsion - if you have that symptom then meditate deeply, look for something that isn't you, although it can hide as you it is not you, change yourself and watch for it lagging, find it, blast it, and posse up

i now know i didn't get it on this sm website, but on a much more controversial site, the unknowncountry.com message board - not a place for the faint of heart - where flame attacks are very common, pro vamps are everywhere and start fights just to feed on the enregy produced, and cia spooks and mind-control mk-ultras and all sorts of nasty people hang out - i am almost sure it was from there, and i'm pretty sure who, or which group of whos, it was - a few others over there have found them now that they know to look

we gonna ride soon as we know for sure, just in case it was someone reading this

Thank you for posting this. the symptoms you describe sound similar to what I'm going through for years. I will try and purge my self and look specifically for what your describing.

Fear is the Ego.

Love is the ego. It gets fed from our eyes, ears, heart and soul. Both love and fear are mirrors of each other, and ultimately can burn holes in the beholder.

Just curious Esoterica~ sorry to repeat the question, but was the construct independent or was it 'remote controlled' by the offender? I'm sorry to look at this so analytically, but I've never seen a construct like this before.

This post has been edited by kaboom13: May 16 2010, 01:19 PM

me neither - it was independent - created and released like a computer virus?

me neither - it was independent - created and released like a computer virus?

Ah. Talentless idiot then. Make him burn.

there also a possibility what ever it was just manifested it self as the worm at the time, Feeding off a deep rooted fear and may not be the creatures true form.

there also a possibility what ever it was just manifested it self as the worm at the time, Feeding off a deep rooted fear and may not be the creatures true form.

In my experiences, when I start attacking something that's been harassing me, we go through this lovely thing where the target shifts forms, frequencies, and consistencies over and over again until it either exhausts itself and I devour it, or I freeze it in some state and then I just make it defragment.

Form is nothing but a visage to be destroyed with the target.